I’m learning more and more how important it is to rest and listen to your body. I worked incredibly hard in 2012, and didn’t really take a break from all the crafting, sculpting, working and writing I was scheduled to do.
It’s sometimes hard to decide whether it’s worth the stress and pain, but ultimately I think if you feel the need to express yourself then you should do it when can. Last year I thought I was going to explode with all the stories and shapes and textures rolling around in my head and I needed to get them out there and make them real. I did, and I sculptured hundreds of creatures, wrote stories, poetry, a play, and learnt a new skill or two along the way.
2013 though is a different beast. When 1st January came by I wasn’t sure what to make of this year. I felt like I’d achieved a lot last year and I really didn’t think I’d be able to top it without sacrificing sleep and food. Slowly, I’ve started to realise that we don’t need to maintain our thunderous momentum constantly. I think we’re made to work in bursts and then take a step back and look at what we’ve done. You don’t have to stop completely, you just have to slow it down, make every action just a little bit more graceful, and be conscious of each movement, each activity, and live in the moment. I often struggle with guilt, in that I always feel I could be doing more. Right now, I’m throwing away the guilt!
I’ve been sculpting when I feel the most inspired to. Writing when I’ve felt the warmth of a story growing. Just thinking when my body has felt at peace. It’s been a long time since I’ve been able to feel this balanced. And I think until days suddenly become longer and we can fit more in with ease, I’m going to maintain this balance as long as I can.